cracks of my broken heart……

Maybe we need just a little more time
Time that can heal what’s been on your mind
You can find what we’ve lost before it all slips away
We need time to mend from the mistakes I’ve made
God only knows what a heart can survive
So many tears from all the pain in our lives
And where else could we go after all we’ve been through
I still believe my life is right here with you

So just hold on
And it’ll wont take long
I hope that you can love me
When the pain is gone
I don’t want us to fall through the cracks of a broken heart
Don’t want us to fall through the cracks of your broken heart

I know its taking a while but every lesson, i’ve learned
And if your heart speaks tonight, I’ll hear every word
If you want to be free I’ll never stand in your way
But with all that I am, I’m asking you to stay

Hold on
And it’ll wont take long
I hope that you can love me
When the pain is gone
I don’t want us to fall through the cracks of a broken heart
Don’t want us to fall through the cracks of your broken heart

There’s a light that can burn
It exists in the heart
You can feel it when you know love is true
If you could try to be strong
And keep the light burning long
It took a lifetime but i found it in you

Hold on
And it’ll wont take long
I hope that you can love me
When the pain is gone
I don’t want us to fall through the cracks of a broken heart
Don’t want us to fall through the cracks of your broken heart

should i….

OR

I’m torn because….

that flight….

life-changing

gave up almost everything i have for love

beating a deadline

no confirmed hotel booking

chance passenger

this is the memorabilia:

Despite…..

….of all that had happened, all that’s been said and done, i still long for you

….all the pains that I’ve felt and been feeling at this very moment, i still want you

…. all the ignored messages and calls, I still want to talk to you and hear your voice

…. the pain of accepting who we are now and what you have become after the “mutual” separation, I still want you back

…the uncertainties of your feelings for me,  i don’t even know if you still want to see me, but,  I still want to see you

i love you. still. so much.

and every day of my life I will carry that love just for you.

just a thought….

Dear God,

My heart is broken.

Crushed beneath the weight of unmet expectations,

In anguish over arguments,

Frustrated about having to say the same things over again,

Left feeling uncherished and unimportant

Trapped in a roller coaster of emotions

Wondering why it seems that I’m the only one shattered by the sad event

Feeling so alone and detached from my loved ones

Heal me and restore me my GOD!

Amen.

 

it could’ve been…..

…two years

…the pain still lingers

…the longing just won’t stop

….the love will not end

…the hope springs eternal

…my heart and mind wouldn’t stop remembering

s0….

I’m celebrating it posthumously….

with my broken heart, tears in my eyes and happy memories!

my forever valentine….

I’m so sorry for all the pains that I’ve caused you. I’m so sorry if I’ve given you disappointments. I know you felt really bad when I made that “life-changing” decision without consulting or telling you about it. I’m really sorry. I got your emails and it made me cry a river. Your love is unconditional and I can’t thank God enough for giving me someone like you. I’ll see you soon. I can’t wait to taste your cooking— the delicious pancake in the morning, the mouth-watering bacon-wrapped fried chicken and the super sarap arrozcaldo. I can’t wait to hug you and tell you all that had happened. I can’t wait to kiss you and tell you how thankful I am because I know no other woman could ever love me the way that you do. Thank you for not judging me and for accepting me and loving me despite everything that had happened. I love you so much.  Mommy, you are my forever valentine! Happy heart’s day!

i do. so much…..

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